Preparing The Man

Have you ever noticed how easily a beautiful dominant woman can twist a man around her finger? One laughing comment and he's willing to change so many things. Especially when he knows she is right.

I mentioned how stressed I'd been lately. I had planned to listen to some relaxation MP3s but I never found the time. Because of all the rushing trying to get everything done before my boss has a coronary, I've become even more stressed than I was the other day. I mentioned this to Lady Julia tonight. I had called Bill to check on him and she laughingly pulled the phone away from him and informed me she was disappointed with me. Even when she is teasing, that makes me feel terrible to hear that. When I asked what she meant, she replied that she was disappointed that I hadn't been taking better care of myself by putting my emotional health as a priority. "How are you going to serve that Dominant woman you're seeking if you don't keep yourself ready?" She said that in a half serious-half teasing tone but it hit me hard. She went on to say that I should take time to take care of myself because I should be important to myself first. That's true too.

I never really considered that not taking good care of myself and making that a priority was placing me in a position that made me poorly prepared to serve. Obviously I know I should watch my weight and I've been doing that. I know I needed to quit smoking and I did that thanks to her Surrender 3 hypnosis MP3. But I never thought about taking care of my stress level as preparation for submitting. It makes sense. A stressed man's blood pressure is usually up. Stress definitely makes me irritable and it makes me less efficient at work. I need to more effectively deal with stress. I have to make time beginning tonight to listen to those relaxation MP3s and to plan out other things to reduce my stress, like getting up 30 minutes earlier each work day so the traffic is less on the way to work.

That one sentence tonight changed my attitude. I haven't yet found the woman I want to serve but when I do I want to be ready in every way. If I think of it that way, I'm more motivated. In a way it's like pleasing her ahead of time.

On Edge

I've been on edge this week worse than normal. I started a new job a few weeks ago and the stress has been hellacious. I have to travel more than they indicated during my interview and the classes I teach are twice as big as I was told. Teaching seminars may not sound like a difficult thing to do but for me it is getting that way.

I haven't had time to be hypnotized 1:1 even though I had the offer because the timing just never works out. I'm not complaining because I know it cannot be helped. I decided to start an intensive training program for my mind and made a list of MP3s to listen to and a schedule to follow. I've decided to listen to a relaxation MP3 and a submissive surrender MP3 every day this week and then evaluate my progress before moving on to the next level.

Today I would rate my stress level as an 7 since I am not at work (1-10, one no stress, 10 ready for a heart attack). I'll report my progress for those interested.